purgatory

[sylverhawke]

I'm stuck in limbo. I can't be here anymore, but I don't want to go anywhere. I'm so tired of being alone, but I'm scared to death to let anyone else in. I wish I was like everyone else, but I can't even begin to understand their motivations. I fight between sentimentality and hyper-rationality. I wish I wanted to get married, and start a

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[bluebrena]

I had friends in the past that continue to live the "American dream" or moving in that direction. But not everyone's perspective on the "American dream" is the same as what they make it out to be. Some people don't have a choice in that matter

[sylverhawke]

it takes me forever to respond sometimes...

i know what it's like. i tried to kill myself twice in my younger days. it's something i try not to think about most of the time. i'm glad i didn't succeed, and i won't let myself go there ever again. i can't give up because i have to hope that there is something more....otherwise what's the point?