I am posting in here today to catch up on things that I am so far behind on. I have contacted my Master but He is back to not talking to me. Which seems to be a common thing between us. On a bright note I will be able to post more often in a week or two when I finally have my own computer in my room. Work keeps me pretty busy and in a few weeks I ( Read more... )

First, I am sorry for my lengthy absence. I have moved to Iowa and am working night shift so it is hard to juggle all of my obliations. Anyway, I have arrived safely and I enjoy living here. I am making significant strides in both of my Spirituality and Slavery. I promise to write as often as I can.

I know it has been a few days since I have posted in my journal. Mainly I am getting ready to move to Iowa. I was originally scheduled for tomorrow but I have some last minute things that came up so I will be leaving the Monday after Easter which is the 17th. I have been doing alot of thinking about my Master lately and how much I miss Him. I would ( Read more... )

I was reading a story that got me to think more about slavery and the dynamics. I take my position seriously, more so then most. Alot of people are into BDSM as a part time thing and that is okay for them. To me though it goes on a much larger scale. I consider myself a 24/7 slave to my Master. To me there is no time for a break. I most always ask ( Read more... )

I have been doing alot of thinking on my slavery tonight and how it affects me. I feel that most of my resistance is due to fear on my part. So much of the emotion is from past issues. The feelings that stirs up in me. The way I get turned on by sadistic fantasies. I am totally a masochist and have always wanted to be whipped and tortured while I ( Read more... )

The submissive one
You scored 32
Based on these results, we can see that you're submissive. You dont sacrifice your own desires for your partner, but you certainly put your partner's needs before your own, and you are relatively obedient.

My friend just posted a entry in her journal that has made me extremely hot thinking about my Master. I am envisioning my Master having me tied to the bed as He inserts a dildo up my ass and one in my cunt. Or even fingering me with His huge fingers as I struggle against the rope. Realizing that it is fruitless to attempt to escape. He laughs an ( Read more... )

I went into my doctor today to get some medicines for my tooth ache and when they checked my blood pressure it was severely low. Ordinarly I would not be concerned but a month ago it was to high. So, what is one to make of this. Obviously there is a problem somewhere.

My friend was mentioning Total Power Exchange and I was reading a story at the same time. I was in a 24/7 for a few months but sadly me and my Master had to part ways for now. Everything about me is still His though. My loyalty is very strong and I know that no one could possibly understand that devotion and love. It is so hard to live my life ( Read more... )

I realize that with all of my filthy talk. Some of you may think that I do not have a serious side to me. Nothing could be further from the truth. I like to think that I have an open mind when it comes to my sexuality. At the same time I am very Spiritual and walk the way of a Mystic Priestess. I am into such things as the New Age, Ascended Masters ( Read more... )