shirley died last week, and i'm wondering how many more times i can wear the shoes i bought that only go with the one outfit i have for funerals.  she found me in the middle of the street at two, just after i learned how to open doors.    a grandmother when mine was running from her past.  the ladies used to gossip on her front porch when i was a ( Read more... )

i'm sick of being a coward. i thought this house would build me up, but you can't build up something that wasn't even there to begin with.  i'm done being afraid.  afraid to take a chance, afraid of leading someone on, afraid of how they feel, or i feel.  i'm sick of fearing everyone, of what they could possibly do to me.  i'm sick of not trusting ( Read more... )

i'm feeling lonely today.  like the days and hours of solidarity have finally caught up to me.  i wonder if looking back i'll see it less as self-preservation and more like being a coward.  right now, i kind of feel like a coward

i'm sick of all the hurt and and horrible things happening to good people.  tims dad died last night.  which is amazing.  he was going to come over but i was really tired and thought tonight would be better.  he would have been here when it happened.  and all i keep thinking is that i could have at least been here for him.  when we were 13 and his ( Read more... )

Opening Credits: come on, come on by the von bondies
Waking Up: lola stars and stripes by the stills
Falling in Love: to be with you by u2
Fight scene: save yourself by sensefield, not that senses fail bullshit
Breaking up: linger by the cranberries
Getting back together: i just died in your arms tonight by reo speedwagon
Secret Love: love will come ( Read more... )

found out about mrs.sobczak today at work.  i did okay until we slowed down.  i lost the key card and thats when i broke.  had to break threw the crowd and into the bathroom.  my mom's not doing so great.  she spent the evening in her room until kris needed to get to practice.  i guess i'm just numb and exhausted from too much emotion.  more later

Opening Credits: teenage wasteland by the who
Waking Up: saint and sailors by dashboard confessional
Falling in Love: love will come through by travis
Fight scene: skeleton jar
Breaking up: honey and the moon by joseph arthur
Getting back together: fall into you by mazzy star
Secret Love: dreams by the cranberries
Life's okay: lightness by death cab for ( Read more... )

...so i thought i'd join in the fun for awhile. so here's the soundtrack for today

Opening Credits: when you're gone by matchbox 20
Waking Up: addict by fiona apple
Falling in Love: she is by the fray
Fight scene: mad world by gary jules
Breaking up: something to sleep to by michelle branch
Getting back together: missing you by jem
Secret Love: ( Read more... )

thought i'd take advantage of the fact that i'm one of the few people who have power to write; something i haven't thought to do in monthes ( Read more... )

Q. Geekiest part of your music collection ( Read more... )