my unimaginably cold house, and my persistence to not study for my international finances final tomorrow found me looking through my old coats.  i found this purplish fleece i wore my freshman year of high school.  this was back when i didn't have my varsity jacket and i wasn't prepared to own a better coat.  i'd forgotten about this jacket ( Read more... )

it's almost 230 and my goal for sleep was 2, so we can see how well i've been sticking to goals this semester.  which, thankfully, is almost over.

hit repeat on fire by augustana and i can't get enough.  i think it's the line in the second verse about moving slowly to the sadness, and being able to watch her dance for hours.  there's something ( Read more... )

have i even written this year?  oh who knows.  dinner with clara and crystal tonight to talk about crystal maybe moving in with me until kris does this summer.  i need to learn to live with someone other than myself or i'll be useless to anyone other than me. 
if you were here, i could deceive you
the summer flew by with few hiccups and few parties ( Read more... )

Lately, I've become accustomed to the way
The ground opens up and envelopes me
Each time I go out to walk the dog.
Or the broad edged silly music the wind
Makes when I run for a bus...

Things have come to that.

And now, each night I count the stars.
And each night I get the same number.
And when they will not come to be counted,
I count the holes they leave ( Read more... )

 it's finally here.  the start of a new year.  you wouldn't think it would be so important, but another year like last, and i might not make it out ( Read more... )

 i started to write leanne this letter.  i write her a lot.  usually at school, in class when i'm bored.  between them.  it's nice to write something down instead of type it out.  sometimes i think it's more lethargic.  it keeps her in the loop, letting us play phone tag without missing much ( Read more... )

i got my  "i miss you"

i got a whole list of what-ifs

i got a friend in pain

i got the greatest and most painful hug ever

i got the connection i needed

last nights party was  a winner for me.  but not for everyone else

i have come to the conclusion that only massive amounts of coffee work in keeping you awake.  all other amounts of coffee just make you alert, but still yawning.  which is where i am at now.    i'm taking another break from filing becuase frankly, i've always hated filing.  it's my least favorite job.  but we sent the intern home this week, so it's ( Read more... )

apparently, i haven't written something here in 20 weeks.  thats impressive.  it really is.  thats ages.  the amount of things that can change over that period of time is astounding.  seriously.  i'm trying to think of what exactly i was doing 20 weeks ago.  that would put me somewhere in february.  jesus.  was sean and clara dating yet?  had he ( Read more... )

i realized that i haven't written yet this year, and thats sad and misfortunate, so i thought i'd rectify that with an absolutely worthless entry.

my car battery died last tuesday, just as i was leaving for work.  remember it being the coldest day yet of the season?  yeah i walked the half mile to my parents and stole my dads truck.  we fixed it ( Read more... )