i have things to say, but what does it matter if no one's listening ( Read more... )

i want november to end! this month has been AWFUL. i don't know why, but i feel like November has always been a pretty rough month for me for some reason. i can't tell if it's more academic, personal, social, or what. anyway, i'm looking forward to december ( Read more... )

take a sad song and make it better

i have been having this problem lately...

i get so full of thoughts that i feel like i'm going to explode if i don't get some of them out. alright, so i try and let them out, try to put them in words...but i can't; i fail each and every time. what i do manage to get out there ends up making as much sense as rosebudin class today, i had so much i ( Read more... )

you know what i really want right now?! je veux être la destination.

i'm having a good weekend.
i now have christmas lights strung around part of my bedroom wall.
there's a giant bowl of chocolate on the living room coffee table that i put there.
i fall asleep and dream and wake up and day dream.
i hung out with friends i never get a chance to see and watched movies i never get a chance to watch.

Detroit to Vienna. $605. roundtrip. 6/1/08-6/18/08.

I'm like two steps away from being irrational and buying that ticket like right now. adabfksdbgkbsgbgmnbfngmbds!!!!! that's half of what i paid for the last ticket i bought to cross the atlantic. doh!

i am now sure that writing papers on computers with internet access spells nothing but slow and irregular progress at best and complete and utter disaster at worst. i have officially skipped more classes in the last week than in my first two years combined. that makes me feel like crap.

why can't i simply say "i miss" and have it carry meaning?! why do i have to state what it is i miss?! or else put in the past tense for it to make any sense?! can't i simply be in the state or act of missing?! why does this verb not allow me to keep secrets?! it demands an object. it refuses to hide or lie away its contents. or else it remarks on ( Read more... )

do happy endings really exist?!

are selfish people a victim of laziness or nature?!