Dear Anonymous ( Read more... )

so i'm a bit confused on the dustin front. I know i should just get the fuck over him...sounds easy huh..but every thing reminds me of the fucker! And as much as i would like to think he's a fucker i can't! dammit! And i really should feel like he is now that he told me that everything he wrote me and all the times he left me comments and such, was ( Read more... )

the acceptance came...dustin and i took a drive and listened to within you without you...and with the windows down and music blaring...i found peace. Most people say "broken heart" but i never felt like it was broken i felt like it was heavy, i felt like it had a calus around it...and i swear i could feel the calus break away from my heart as we ( Read more... )

Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Depression
Acceptance

I think i went through Denial, Anger and Bargaining all in one phone conversation with him...so now i'm in depression...

God when will the fucking acceptance come?

SO as many of you know...dustin and I are no longer one...together..you know. Well as many of you also know i do not listen to kelly clarkson very often(or ever) But, driving home from shannons (by the way thank you so much for always being there for me) i was listening to the radio (because every one of my cd's reminds me of him) and i heard this ( Read more... )

To Nathan R. McKeever: Lovely comment ( Read more... )

It's almost been a year since i've seen ry. The person i used to spend every waking moment with...and i haven't seen him in almost a year. What if i never again see him? What if i never recieve a hug from him, or see his smile, or visit his new life? Further more what if i never have that person i can tell anything to again? What if i never find a ( Read more... )

My mom is sitting behind me, she is a nice lady. She makes me laugh. I decided to update and see how many comments i get, the number will determine the next time i update...1 person= 1 year...2 people= 6 months 3 people= tomorrow. But i won't remember to check. I just read matt's thursday entry...if you aren't a regular you should be. I'm behind on ( Read more... )

So this is the first day of my life. Everything else has faded away and i am here, born new. Every regret, every sour feeling has melted away. I want my future to start so i can start it with dustin. This is how i feel at this moment in time. I would even go to the west coast with him...ha. Sometimes you meet people that change your life. Sometimes ( Read more... )

And then you awake
his arms hold you tight
it was all just a nightmare
it was all incomplete
You can't be alone
when there's someone there to care
but how will you know
until you open your eyes?