last night lying alone in bed was chilly enough for revelations. the changing dynamics shouldn't damper the things i used to look upon with such high regard. there's a lot of potential in certain places. it's time to sit down and focus; clarity should be the primary aim. the countdown to the end that i foresaw was simply the facade i'm so ( Read more... )

i'll say it. summer sucked. during the night chat yesterday, i confessed that every day was just a countdown to right now. now that now is here, i don't know what the deal is. my roommates are never around and the mountaintop kids seem distant. i need to make important life decisons. oh, and i miss jessica blaser.

i went to the police station 3 times last week for 3 different police reports. the other day i was drywalling in the attic and got severely electrocuted, leaving my hand covered in blisters. i got new glasses. all excited, i showed my grandma who said only "well i guess that's the style now." my life has been lacking lately ( Read more... )

I got home from Spain a few weeks ago and what a crazy time it’s been. As though I wasn’t immediately depressed enough, I returned home to remember that I hadn’t unpacked from the last time I lived in Syracuse. A month later, I’m almost done with all my unpacking; the last suitcase from Spain was unloaded yesterday. As I cleaned the old memories ( Read more... )

i'm working on writing, i swear.

i bought a new hat. thusfar, it has gotten me into heaps of trouble. i didn´t think that a hat could do that, but i guess i was wrong. oh so wrong.

so tonight i watched this movie called jamon jamon that i believe epitomizes life in spain. plot summary: penelope cruz is like 14, gets knocked up, and now her boyfriend wants to marry her. so they go and sit in a car in the desert and he starts sucking on her boobs saying how they taste like tortilla. wonderful. then his mother hates yje ( Read more... )

not even i understand how i can be so depressed and so excited all at the same time.

umm, so about 10 minutes ago, i'm eating dinner and corona drops this ( Read more... )

as of about an hour ago, i'm pretty sure i'm on a national security watchlist. here's why ( Read more... )