i have a friend i never see. he keeps his head inside a dream. someone should call him and see if he can come out, try to lose the down that he's found. but only love can break your heart. try to be sure right from the start. (nobody broke your heart. you broke your own cause you can't finish what you start ( Read more... )

i damn near lost my mind trying to think like somebody else ( Read more... )

in the middle of summer, we watch the birds dance in the light
she watches everything, and she knows when i'm shrinking.
somehow, tonight, i just can't get it right.

i walk outside to look at the garden, and realize i haven't weeded in weeks.
so i start weeding, with the feeling that it's neverending
cause all i can think about are the ones underneath.

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THIS IS NOT FAIR! IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT YOU DIDN'T GIVE ME WHAT I NEEDED. IT'S NOT MY FAULT THAT I FELL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE WHO LOVES ME AND SHOWS IT. AND I'M NOT GOING TO FEEL GUILTY ANYMORE. JORDAN IS SO GREAT AND BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT AND GOOD TO ME AND I'M GOING TO LET GO AND ENJOY IT.   I'M LETTING GO. I'M LETTING GO.  MAYBE I WAS WRONG TO ( Read more... )

i guess their lives are much like mine.

and it's hard to say if they're happy, but they don't seem much to mind.

"all the times you told me you loved me were a lie." "No one will ever love you as much as i do." "i thought i was going to marry you." "I guess layla and i are going to sleep in the bed of the truck."
my stomach hurts.

as long as this is love, it's not always easy. if this is love, i guess we're going to have to live with the consequences ( Read more... )

looking back on all the crap i learned in high school, it's a wonder i can think at all ( Read more... )

it's funny and sad how little we grow. it's sad that i use we when i mean i.
you come home, you come here, don't stay so far away from me. this weather has me wanting love more tangible.

pass through my life like a dream through my head. it will be easy.
what a lie. what a lie.

She don't want nobody home,
Cause it's a little too crowded then.
But she don't wanna be alone
So they just keep pouring in.

She don't want no one around,
Cause she don't want anybody to see
What she looks like when she's down,
Cause that's a really sad place to be.
Pretty soon she gets them crawling up the walls,
Then she wonders why they beg her please to ( Read more... )

just for the record, i thought i'd update this journal to let Gina 2.0 know that it didn't all suck. I'm at home with Cory, watching that 70's show on my day off, thinking about how great my life is and wishing only that i  had an unlimited income with which to finish college and travel the world. The weather's great and I'm sure that everything ( Read more... )