ugh. i just want to talk everything out. my remedy. it always works but its not working now. i cant find the time to tell anyone and no one can find the time to listen. so my worries fester burning a whole through what once was mended. i want to start over. i need to. i am okay.

i try so hard not to make things more difficult than they really are. i always inadvertantly screw up, cause i myself am a natural born screw up. i cant ever do anything right. im ruining everyones life, including my own. im so sick of this shit. how is it i can feel so much for everyone else but never feel enough to please myself? ugh, just once i ( Read more... )

great weekend. i wish every weekend was like that. pass me a beer. goodnight.

yesterday was . . kickass. got out of school early after the worst midterm of my life, and alex picked up me nessa anna and colleen. we headed over to annas where rose diana brian paul and danny met us. it was funny all of us lounging around smoking (alex being the only one not i felt so bad we were killing his aveoli with the second hand smoke lol ( Read more... )

yeah so these past two days have been quite pleasent. i like this whole half dayschool thing lol ( Read more... )

1. What is your Full Name: Liliana Maria Vitoria Amato ( Read more... )

its been an emotional day and im drained. theres no one to talk to, no one i want to talk to, and worst of all no one who understands. i want to escape.

not good enough. nothing is ever good enough. WHY isnt it good it enough? i want it to be good enough. i NEED it to be good enough. fit the mold.

time is a man made thing. i dont trust it; it's dependable. never fails at its job to take away your life. slowly but surly minute after minute hour after hour you are that much closer to the end. im not sure anymore if that comforts me or frightens me ( Read more... )

im back again. i guess that last entry didnt get it all off my chest cause its still caving in. its so hard to let go of the past and just when you finally think its over it comes back just to bite you in the ass again. i was tricked. i thought you all changed and now with all the nonsense gone and out of the way we could all magically be friends ( Read more... )