Found a huge cedar tree and could not help but wrap my arms around it and press my face against it's bark. Felt it reach back at me, ensconscing me. I nuzzled into the tree ( Read more... )

I need to be free from this external grasping ( Read more... )

Joel layed in my lap. Our bodies and expression mirrored each other perfectly, we were happy and intimate. We spoke about how comforting a lap is. He said, "Yes it is good to lay on someone you trust," he looked up at me and said softly, "But you're not just anyone-" At that exact moment, I jerked my hand to touch his face but was stuck, and we ( Read more... )

I dreamt that I was watching these two people levitate because they knew how to lucid dream, and they were doing it real life. The person who was trying to get me levitate was my teacher from a lucid dreaming class (one I took in real life). He kept telling me that I could do it if I concentrated. I tried really hard, and I kept saying, "I don't ( Read more... )

I dreamt I was at this strange Christian outdoor school. I had two counselors who wanted to subject me to something called “rebirthing,” which required me to be held under mud for a minute to experience some of Christ’s pain. They grabbed me but I screamed and violently fought them off. I escaped and ran off into the woods. One of the counselors ( Read more... )

I dreamt that I was in the basement of a house. Noah, Patrick and Zac were there. I think we were putting on some kind of performance because we were surrounded by costumes, and we kept changing. We were definetely intoxicated. Noah was dressed as a pirate, and he kept stripping me and putting new clothes on me in front of Patrick and Zack, who ( Read more... )

violet blue green sadsoft pull
the Cry
spreading skin thin, freezing blood into a
windsculpture tiptoeing through the night sky
reflecting time through a light hole

Lots of things have happened. I have not been consistent at all with this (consistency is not my middle name ( Read more... )

We walked up to his room and dropped my stuff off. Very strange. His roomate is in there with a girl, so we walk out into the campus. It is very strange. We walk a little bit into the forest. We are both shaking and ridiculously nervous. His beard is very long and his body has changed a little bit, he is much more masculine. It feels like nothing ( Read more... )

Thursday night I went to a small birthday party where I knew only the person who brought me. We started drinking a little. A little tweaky guy comes in and announces that he's going to Humboldt county tonight. This is where Joel is, three hours away. I immediately jumped up - "Can I go with you ( Read more... )