more dreams
I dreamt I was at this strange Christian outdoor school. I had two counselors who wanted to subject me to something called “rebirthing,” which required me to be held under mud for a minute to experience some of Christ’s pain. They grabbed me but I screamed and violently fought them off. I escaped and ran off into the woods. One of the counselors chased after me. I was running for a very long time and could not seem to escape him. He tackled me, and I somehow fought him off and seriously fucked up his arm and pinned him to the ground with my foot. I then went into a long diatribe about why I hate Christianity, “See, look at all the fear and violence you have. Yours is the only religion that threatens ETERNAL torture for not believing in it, it promotes self hatred and fear.” I pressed harder on his arm with my foot and told him, “Fear is the ultimate mode of control.” Somehow we ended up having a long, philosophical conversation and he experienced a paradigm shift. He got up and dusted himself off and thanked me, and we remarked on the oddness of the situation, how so much good could come out of a very negative situation.
Then I was sitting on the edge of a cliff on a warm sunny beach. Children were sledding/surfing down the cliff, which wasn’t very steep but covered with limb sized mollusks. They kept telling me I should surf, and huge waves were crashing up against the shore. I was too afraid of getting skinned up by the reef to surf, and could only watch. People were running on water and then surfing. These two digital seals climbed up out of the water and started chasing me, but I knew they weren’t real so I turned them into marbles. I woke up.
Then I was sitting on the edge of a cliff on a warm sunny beach. Children were sledding/surfing down the cliff, which wasn’t very steep but covered with limb sized mollusks. They kept telling me I should surf, and huge waves were crashing up against the shore. I was too afraid of getting skinned up by the reef to surf, and could only watch. People were running on water and then surfing. These two digital seals climbed up out of the water and started chasing me, but I knew they weren’t real so I turned them into marbles. I woke up.