On older caddilac's and a handful of other town cars, a single tire would be placed on the trunk of the vehicle. Kinda like the tires on the back of a wrangler. this is commonly reffered to as the 5th wheel. the 5th wheel is also the odd man out in a group of people. the latter expression is a better description of my life. not my whole life. for a ( Read more... )

ahh, good ol' journal. so i've been thinking lately. so my friends are all in the process of moving on, and im kinda left here in woodbridge. thats cool though, i admit at first it was a little depressing but now ive come to terms with the fact that i need now, more than ever before, a relationship...now me, i've never really been through that ( Read more... )

so...today was the first day of ramadan. i really wasnt ready for it because i had no idea. i was up till like 6, my dad woke up at 5 and was like "Oh, your up, good, you should eat, today we have to fast" and i was like "DAMN IT!". oh well, other than that, lifes fairly the same. this is a short entry. im never any good at ending these. i always ( Read more... )

its sunday baby. that means one thing and one thing only...football! the redskins play today, but im bettin they lose to a good seattle team. the game im lookin forward to is San Fran vs. Arizona. It is going to be the first regualar season game played in an international venue. then again that venue is Mexico City's "Beaner Dome" or Azteca Stadium ( Read more... )

So now im working at TGI Fridays. its really freakin easy compared to all the other places ive worked. its cool cuz i get to work with Chris and Eddy. Zach is down in NC with his family till he gets up to Virginia Beach. i miss chillin with zach, we had some good times, but life goes on. ill prolly go down and visit him when he gets to da beach. ( Read more... )

In the Ocean of tears
By the seas of sadness
I am driven by fears
In to my madness
as i gasp for air
trying to rise
i feel you there
cheering my demise
love i lost
hate i recieved
i paid a cost
just to believe
you were gone
but back you came
to come along
a play my game
you will never know
all of my pain
you will never show
your face again

ah life...drudgery i once described it as, and yet it still feels like the only word fit. my road is littered with potholes and no exits. im heading straight for death. everyday i die a little more. life is seemingly not worth it to me. i've lived 20 long years and not known true happiness in any of my conscience years. sometimes i miss being a ( Read more... )

This is a great song from a good cd from a fantastic band, if you wanna call it that ( Read more... )

man i love smokin weed. i think that one day though, its gonna be the end of me. i love to get high too much. i dont know why, sometimes i dont even feel like it but man ill still smoke. i dont like drinkin or anything else as much as weed. ive done ecstacy and coke once (never again, cocaine is evil) but nothin is better than gettin high. i smoke ( Read more... )

wow, its been over a year since ive posted any kind of journal entry...and i can't really believe that considering i used to post in my old journal like twice a day. i guess thats what happens when you get a life, hehe. well now, its like 2:30 am, im tired and i needed to write something. living with all these voices in my head and not letting them ( Read more... )