sorry about last entry. i was emo and distraught. not my best moment. apologies. forgive me ( Read more... )

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK ( Read more... )

i feel like if i could do homework in the shower i would never fall behind. all i do in the shower is resolve to better myself and really "turn my life around". i am a perfect person in the shower. if you agree tell me. i need to know there are other perfect shower people ( Read more... )

so i was talking to emily yesterday and i suppose any humor i was trying to convey got caught up in cyberspace and she ended up getting pretty upset. i feel bad about it but at the same time i wasn't trying to communicate any sort of serious ill will towards her so i don't really know how to feel / what to do about the situation. prolly continue to ( Read more... )

i'm not sure what's happening to me right now

i can't deal with anything and i think i am gonna vomit every five minutes
i think i pissed rebecca off and i can't stop shaking

my stomach feel slike it's going to collapse
and i can't stop shaking

i tell her i love her
she says she has to study

does it count as binge eating if the food is really good?!?!?! i didn't think so ( Read more... )

jesus tapdancing christ ( Read more... )

it's so cold in my room i am sleeping with two t-shirts, my jeans and a sweater on ( Read more... )

just got back from a visit home. it was short visit but very nice. got to see some friends, get some financial issues cleared out with my parents, pick up an old bass so i can sell it here, pick up an old check from work / say hi to paul ( i <3 paul ) and be reminded to maintain some semblence of focus in my studies. which i appreciate. just ( Read more... )