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just got back from a visit home. it was short visit but very nice. got to see some friends, get some financial issues cleared out with my parents, pick up an old bass so i can sell it here, pick up an old check from work / say hi to paul ( i <3 paul ) and be reminded to maintain some semblence of focus in my studies. which i appreciate. just realized i forgot my razor. shit. returning to kalamazoo from home i always feel like a have a hodgepdge of mostly positive cheerleaders behind me encouraging me to excel. lord knows i enjoy the rush of other people's expectations just as much as the next person. hmmm, in somewhat related realm of "school news" i am doing well in my classes but not as well as i'd like. i think that the UofM application hassle really threw me out of rhythm which is unfortunate because if i am turned down for winter semester i will prolly have to do very well this semester to apply next year with any hope of acceptance. oh well, lots of school left. lots and lots
lately i've been getting the weird feeling of urgency in my social life. i feel like i should be meeting people. funny interesting and smart people... i hate those people. make me feel dumb. maybe two out of the three qualities but never all three. once you hit three i either start dating you try to be your stalker / friend (with or without your approval). but in all seriousness (or as much as livejournal will afford me) i should start meeting people, and not later but now. before i get too comforatable with what i have in front of me. it'll help me get more interested in my kalamazoo life and hopefully help me get over rebecca. i visited her recently and she made it painfully clear through her contentment with silly chit-chat that "just friends" is peachy for her. i'm sure my behavior betrayed my feelings but at this point i doubt it (i) matters to her. i shouldn't be so melodramaticbut she meant (means?) alot to me. i'm sure i'll come around, lord knows i have before, but i can't help but feel uneasy with the reasons she gave for our breakup. maybe i just want to resent her for how i still feel about her? maybe i just feel exposed in her lack of desire to see me? maybe i should shut up and focus on life in front of me? undoubtedly the latter question is the most pressing.
i should swing by the radio station. maybe i can meet some people there...
(a door opens and in walks our protagonist scott. he spots a nice young person and introduces himself)
:"hello? i'm scott will you be my friend?"
:"YOU REEK OF NON OBSCURE ROCK AND STUPID OLD MUSIC I DON'T CARE TO KNOW ABOUT!!! BEGONE!"
:"eak"
in seriousness i think if i can avoid lusting openly towards allie and keep the amount of work i sign up to do low (neither is easy or without great negative consequence) i should be alright. in other music news Ravel is becoming more and more a favorite of mine. he seems to take everything i like about Debussy (except his blazing good looks *reor*) and make it more accessible. less dissonance, fewer unreasolved harmonies, more rich orchestration and more theme based piece progression. i reccomend :
-String Quartet in F major, assez vif. tres rythme
-Sonatine - II - Mouvement de menuet
-Piano concerto in G - II - Adagio assai
and of course
-Bolero (if you're feeling naughty)
well it's time for bed.
scott
/we will never forget
/www.youforgotpoland.com
lately i've been getting the weird feeling of urgency in my social life. i feel like i should be meeting people. funny interesting and smart people... i hate those people. make me feel dumb. maybe two out of the three qualities but never all three. once you hit three i either start dating you try to be your stalker / friend (with or without your approval). but in all seriousness (or as much as livejournal will afford me) i should start meeting people, and not later but now. before i get too comforatable with what i have in front of me. it'll help me get more interested in my kalamazoo life and hopefully help me get over rebecca. i visited her recently and she made it painfully clear through her contentment with silly chit-chat that "just friends" is peachy for her. i'm sure my behavior betrayed my feelings but at this point i doubt it (i) matters to her. i shouldn't be so melodramaticbut she meant (means?) alot to me. i'm sure i'll come around, lord knows i have before, but i can't help but feel uneasy with the reasons she gave for our breakup. maybe i just want to resent her for how i still feel about her? maybe i just feel exposed in her lack of desire to see me? maybe i should shut up and focus on life in front of me? undoubtedly the latter question is the most pressing.
i should swing by the radio station. maybe i can meet some people there...
(a door opens and in walks our protagonist scott. he spots a nice young person and introduces himself)
:"hello? i'm scott will you be my friend?"
:"YOU REEK OF NON OBSCURE ROCK AND STUPID OLD MUSIC I DON'T CARE TO KNOW ABOUT!!! BEGONE!"
:"eak"
in seriousness i think if i can avoid lusting openly towards allie and keep the amount of work i sign up to do low (neither is easy or without great negative consequence) i should be alright. in other music news Ravel is becoming more and more a favorite of mine. he seems to take everything i like about Debussy (except his blazing good looks *reor*) and make it more accessible. less dissonance, fewer unreasolved harmonies, more rich orchestration and more theme based piece progression. i reccomend :
-String Quartet in F major, assez vif. tres rythme
-Sonatine - II - Mouvement de menuet
-Piano concerto in G - II - Adagio assai
and of course
-Bolero (if you're feeling naughty)
well it's time for bed.
scott
/we will never forget
/www.youforgotpoland.com