If there is someone on your friends list you would love to have a fuckathon with, post this same exact sentence in your journal.

I miss Jamie and the way she *&%$#$ with &%&#(%V& #&$*%@ but still &$&# *%&#! %&@ *%&#...

And I go nuts when she &(# on my #&$$% and then %*#&%^^& everywhere.

A fuckathon with Jamie would be nice right about now...

I don't care what consequence it brings
I have been a fool for lesser things
I want you so bad
I think you ought to know that
I intend to hold you for the longest time

It’s cold and rainy today and that just blows. Reunion II has started and I couldn’t drive the old ladies around in the golf carts because of the weather. Those big vans are warm but ( Read more... )

"This bed is on fire with passionate love ( Read more... )

Fuck is right. I can't see people this way. Especially when I love them. I won't be that person anymore but how do you stop someone else from being that person if they have outside influences that you can't control ( Read more... )

Well, I guess I have to pick and choose my battles.

I'm sorry, baby.

I do need you but you're not helping and that's ok. I'll do it some other way.

So here goes...

A promise to myself to stop doing stupid shit. A promise to myself to not hurt Jamie anymore. Yeah, I know how I am with promises. Fuck that. I can change.

Look at me...I'm going to be ( Read more... )

                    I tried to run but you held me back.

You tried to escape the passion we lack.

I let you go and now you're here.

We're in this for eternity, dear.

I have cramps and they suck. Being a woman is not the best. I'm sitting at work and I can't concentrate on anything. This ( Read more... )

                   love overcomes it all.
             the hurt.
                      the tears.
                                the angry words.
                          the fears.
            the goodbyes.
                       the i-don't-know-why's.
                           the never-agains.
            the not-even-gonna-trys.

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At work.

Was standing outside watching people come in to register for their respective reunions. The van holding several Class of 1954 alums pulled up and I watched as little cute old ladies slowly got out, hats and visors and leather purses.

I noticed the last two, wearing matching pink headscarves and holding hands, kiss as they came out of the ( Read more... )

( While I'm crying, the phone rings... )

Just a short entry to let people know...

I told her to leave. I told Jamie to walk away because I didn't want to cause her to drown in my tears. Hell, I didn't even know what was wrong. She told me at first she didn't need the negativity but then she told me she was one call away. By then, I didn't want to hurt her anymore. By then I had realized ( Read more... )