WHY is it so hard to just be loved?

..I really can't win. It must be one of those traits that just.. get passed down from mother to child. ..My mom seems to scare all her men away .. and now im starting to scare mine.. its like.. no male wants to be in the position .. where they feel needed..it hasen't even gotten to the psycho point, where girls just show up at their mans house if ( Read more... )

..and the title says it all.. and yet, with all the love and comfort I.. have.. or am supposed to have, anyway.. I feel so alone.. its pretty clear that justin gets along just fine without me by his side.. like he has to take care of me and watch over me at all times.. the whole time I was staying with him .. we just laid around the house and I ( Read more... )

er..i'm currently sitting in my old room.. in the back of my grandmothers house.. and once again life has taken a small tumble..it doesn't sound like much.. but it has really shaken me up..and im extremely unhappy right now..more then likely because I'm having to face the problem head on, no way around it.. and because Justin isn't here to pick me ( Read more... )

I don't ever write in this.. everything is still, not right.. but.. me and justin are closer then we've ever been .. so .. considering the way things are going at the moment, thats a huge plus.. but.. eh. Justin told me.. things will get better.. and.. I didn't want to.. smash what he was saying.. but.. people have been telling me that for years, I ( Read more... )

..rofl .. today has been such a fun day.. besides me not end up going to get my blood work done.. just found out my insurance dropped me.. so.. my pills and stuff for my upper abdominal pains ... are like..149$ that I don't have.. so eh.. anyway.. me and justin got up this morning and went to this buffet .. with all this weird food..like stuffed ( Read more... )

Sorry chaps.. didn't mean to just flutter away on you all .. but erm.. odd enough I have a life now.. and plus the computer isn't at our house so.. rawr. all I can say .. for those of you who talk to to me.. my screennames a dirty dream and brayzuh .. are gone.. I have " cant breath " ... so .. send me some mail. love ya gatos. <33

always

Bray

I love you all. I miss my becky. I'm going to the beach these next few days.. im so excited. yay. nice honey glazed tan. mrow.

..make the best of what you have.

brayzuh

When I said we, you know I meant me .. and when I said sweet, I meant dirty.

.. the select few that make me hot.

• Justin
• Becky
• Jessie
• Jason
• Amanda