this really does suck.

[strawberrysex]

..and the title says it all.. and yet, with all the love and comfort I.. have.. or am supposed to have, anyway.. I feel so alone.. its pretty clear that justin gets along just fine without me by his side.. like he has to take care of me and watch over me at all times.. the whole time I was staying with him .. we just laid around the house and I watched him play video games and sleep.. and the moment I leave.. it just seems like he goes out and does things.. but he needs " guy " time.. altho he lives with his best friend.. and as much as I say I don't, I could use a female friend.. yet I still don't see any reason to call any of them up.. its just not worth it.. I either want to be alone.. or with Justin .. I kinda wish it was the same way on the other side.. but it isn't.. of course he is normal.

..but I don't blame him for staying out there..if I could, i'd be out there.. forgetting about everything else..but it doesn't work that way.. alone I will stay.

your pretty doll decay