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Oct 13, 2007 09:51

So the thing I've realized is I'm really good with myself. Like, I like who I am, who I've become over the past few years. But I always thought that being happy with who I am would make me happy overall, and that's not the way it's worked out. I'm sad, okay? I wish that people would just accept that sometimes. I'm not miserable most of the time, ( Read more... )

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strannie October 14 2007, 14:12:46 UTC

I've been to counsellors before, Bob, and I know they help, but like I said I don't have time right now. But I think it's sort of their job to be interested in your life...if they're not then that just makes me not want to go at all.

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strannie October 15 2007, 01:33:06 UTC

I guess I just think of it like if I were a conselor I'd see my patients as wanting some sort of change, and I'd want to do everything I could to facilitate that in a healthy manner. I don't see how a therapist could not care and get anything accomplished.
I mean, I agree that they're a detatched observer and only have your account to go on, but if they don't care I see that as not wanting to help...and caring is exactly why people would want that job, eh? If they didn't they'd just do studies, not actual counselling.

rahnia October 14 2007, 03:04:48 UTC

But all of these people have more important people. And that's okay, it's not that I want everyone to pay attention to me all the time. It just seems like everyone has their appointed best friend/boyfriend/girlfriend, and I don't have anyone I'm that close to. There's nobody that when I'm really sad I can just call and cry to for a few minutes and everything can seem at least a little bit better. So I either cry alone in my room and get nothing accomplished except feeling sorry for myself, or I don't let myself do that and things like last Saturday happen where I just can't hold everything in anymore (and I'm drunk).

This is exactly how I always feel. And it sucks. Like I'm always the alternative to the best friend, or runner-up. Blah. I wish I had something more cheerful to say about it, but I don't, just that...I get it.

strannie October 14 2007, 14:14:34 UTC

sometimes it's better to have someone who knows what you mean than someone who thinks they know how to fix it.
I'm glad we keep in touch via this silly internets thing.

rahnia October 15 2007, 00:18:24 UTC

Me too...makes it feel less silly, no?

courtneyjeanne October 15 2007, 14:52:40 UTC

I know we hang out but really don't talk about important issues. Maybe one day this week you and I should go get some coffee?

strannie October 15 2007, 15:30:06 UTC

That sounds like a really great idea. There's always guys around when we do hang out haha...that or lots of shots. Also, we still need to watch Entourage some time too.
I'll maybe see you tonight for Monday Night Football and we can figure out when we're both free this week. :)

courtneyjeanne October 15 2007, 18:06:52 UTC

I have an AOII meeting at 8pm, but it should only last about an hour. I'll most likely be at Jason's afterwards probably between 9 and 9:30! I know the game will most likely be over but what game could possibly be as awesome as the one from sunday? (Haha jk, I heard you and Gebler were quite upset)

courtneyjeanne October 15 2007, 18:46:52 UTC

The game doesn't start until 8:15 I think, so you should make it back for most of the second half. The game will be okay, I think, but no, could not compare. I was sad, but at least if we had to lose, it was to a sweet stud like Tom Brady. I'll give Jason a call, and hopefully be there when you get back.