"all those big words he must have learned in college" -modest mouse ( Read more... )

Yeeeeah, what can I say?

Weird days

Lots of emotional ebbing... Switching between paradigms trying to find the one that causes the least pain.

Doesn't matter.

It's so hard to live in the here and now; feels like nothing; feels like a dumb french project and talking on the phone.

It's only what I've made it.

Only what I need.

"all the damage we have done to each other ( Read more... )

Nowhere, fast. It's very difficult to reform yourself... especially by yourself. And feeling as though someone should have to be paid hourly to help you out... well $80 counseling bills are not in my budget. Government subsidies probably don't give much to people still living at home. Though who's to say that's the solution anyways? Perhaps I'd ( Read more... )

Slow processes and a little aprehension ( Read more... )

Thoughts are stilted. This keyboard is my art. I am creating and tearing down at the same time as words pour out. Usually. I wish to repaint myself by means of truth and reality sometimes only apparent on paper. Or a screen. Staring back at you, challenging - either way ( Read more... )

"we want more than the wars of our fathers" - Switchfoot ( Read more... )

Hmm... I love that Dashboard song.. about wanting to know exactly what the other person thinks and perfers... but only wishing that it would match up with what the singer thinks and perfers..because that would make them perfect... yes. sure. oh man ( Read more... )

"I live just to drown in you"

I want out.

I want to shift my reality.

Something other than this.

My experiment in dying is almost through.

The worst is yet to come.

"I'm not a perfect person" --- have the Hoobastank song stuck in my head
Sometimes lj is just lame. It's easy to sound like an ass or just plain boring like you have too much time on your hands. Oh well, we do it anyway.

We all do things just because sometimes.

Give me purpose.