6 am...traditionally I'm never up this early. I think something is wrong. I'm not certain. But I can't sleep. I'm trying to reflect on the ignorance and naivete of years past and use it as a platform to further realization. But to realize what? I guess I can take the blame for making a lot of things in my life fall apart. I started feeling ( Read more... )

Today, as usual, doesn't have much to do with anything...tally my score: I've got a car sitting in my parking lot that decided to die on me, I'm almost a "full fledged customer service representative" *snicker* and will have no money for 2 weeks...China 9, Liberty 37 um humm. In more important and equally irrelevant news, I'm looking forward to the ( Read more... )

"you could slit my throat...and with my final gasping breath I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt..."

I am going to start posting again soon...*holds breath*

incidentally she was the first person I wanted to see, but the last i actually expected to

This closeness makes me sick ( Read more... )

well...today's episode finds the relentless drama that is my life continuing its standstill phase, as i have been put on the proverbial 'waiting list,' at least in a figurative sense. As I've come to realize, the phrase 'hopeless optimism' is more than a bit of a redundancy, in the sense that it seems that all optimism is inherently hopeless. ( Read more... )

Last night I slept on a park bench for an hour and a half...my life is almost at a complete standstill right now. I'm not trying to imply super-dramatic overtones, I mean it wasn't that bad, except for the police search beacon or whatever it was shining on me every 15 seconds, and I suppose people do it all the time. I think an hour and a half on a ( Read more... )