Well, I was supposed to be getting married in April, but from the way things are going lately, I honestly don't see that happening. I really thought that girls were the ones that started the drama in relationships, but this has been proven wrong. My heart is getting broken. I was proposed to on Thanksgiving, and now I've been getting pushed away. ( Read more... )

So I am very excited!! I am going to get married again, which means now is time to rush the divorce with Jay. But it is all worth it!!

Man I stayed up for fricken late last night! Drinking a beer is making me tired now. Oh well! It was all worth it. But then again.. I don't have to work today. But Tom does.. lol

So things have been up and down for me. But for the last month things have been going up and up. I believe that I have been happier than I have in my entire life. I have never been more in love. And pure love. Not the fighting all the time drama filled love. But serene love.

So I have been doing a lot of thinking. I have come to realize that I really hate Florida. Maybe I should move out of this wretched place. Honestly I don't think that I would be happy anywhere. What is the purpose of life? Love is a hard thing to grasp. I don't think that I will love someone with my entire heart ever again. It just seems like there ( Read more... )

I love them both, can't have them both ( Read more... )

I think that I am the biggest fuck up in the world.. Not to mention the most confused. For God's sake, I am 20 years old and I should be able to live my life. But I shouldn't hurt people for my happiness. I just don't know what to do. Yuck

I'm really scared. I just don't know what to do anymore. I am a terrible person.

Is all of this worth it?

I really hope so.

Everybody loves rollercoasters!!

But what about a life rollercoaster?

Meh, not so fun

It amazes me how one night I can be sooo mad that I try to get up and leave, and the next day I'm at lunch thinking about how much I love that person.

He doesn't know it, but he has me wrapped around his fingers.

The sad thing is... I don't believe that is vice versa.

But god I love him.