I have no money, and no job.. thanks to the fascist tyrants at the Firkin and Kegler. Fuck you and your biometric scanning. I will not fall into line... at least not yet.

On a more party note: WOO!!! SPRING BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!

Another dream... I was in Luke's old room in the Galbi house. I was reading his suicide note on the computer again, as I'd obsessively been doing the past few days following his passing. Only this time, for some reason, the entry came with a webcam recording of what Luke was doing when he wrote it. I studied it, and at first, I could barely see ( Read more... )

So, the other night, I dreamed that Luke was hanging out back in the house in Galbi. He said: "Yeah, I'm sad that I died too, but I'm gonna try to get over it, so that I can help you guys through it ( Read more... )

happy birthday to me...

If you must say hurtful things to me, please come to me with what you have to say openly. That way, perhaps we can work something out. Life is too short for bullshit, and far too cruel to be mean to one another.

"The dead man must desperately resist the dictates of reason, as we understand it, and give up the supremacy of egohood, regarded by reason as sacrosanct. What this means in practice is complete capitulation to the objective powers of the psyche, with all that this entails; a kind of symbological death, corresponding to the Judgement of the Dead in ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wish I didn't know how the trick was done. But I suppose I'd prefer to be the magician over the rabbit. Unless I had rabies. Then I'd bite the magician. I'm no fucking tool.

Hush now, my darling. There's nothing to fear ( Read more... )

My journey starts today. Yes, I thought about it. Yes, I know it's risky, but I'm taking precautions. I feel compelled to do it for some odd reason. However, I do realize that the exercises I will be doing can ultimately change my personality, which I guess is the point, but I don't want anything worthwhile to be destroyed. I've made lists of ( Read more... )

I'm changing. I must create over what has ben destroyed, and perhaps destroy more so that I can create more. I've been increasingly introspective and I've been thinking- in the end, none of you motherfuckers are gonna be around. There's just me- and that's the only great truth that has proven to be real in my mind. I spent two days in my closet ( Read more... )