i finally remembered. blacked out at work, no big deal. here is a hint, do not donate blood. everything is ok. mostly i hang out with lux and watch tv. its ok, because it is getting cold.

today we found a 2000 sq. foot apartment with an art studio slash our own club included in it. and its affordable. it's the diamond. you would not even believe ( Read more... )

i buy new clothes every day ( Read more... )

well, being thin was really fun. i mean. seriously! i was 110 for a while and i loved looking all bony and fragile. but then i rediscovered how good food was, specifically cookies, and i am well on my way back to being a fatass. oh well. these oreos are DELICIOUS. who am i impressing anyway? maybe instead of trying to be thin i will get really fat ( Read more... )

i am alive ( Read more... )

i asked my dad if he would send me flowers for valentine's day ( Read more... )

sometimes i just don't know what to do. i have to go to the airport in less than three hours and i'm scared. i finished making the cake and i'm tired.

i'm tired and i'm scared and i don't know what to do.

perfect.

i mean. everything is good though. i'm just anxious.

I left work today because i am leaving for [Prague] earlier than expected. Complete relocation of all my anxiety. Today [he] left me a message on the telephone that made me sigh out of complete gratitude. I am trying to be gracious.

i keep staying up for 24 hour periods and then forcing myself to go to work slightly buzzed. i never anticipated any of this ( Read more... )

talking to you is like talking to a ghost.

and

months ago i
yesterday you
tomorrow is