it could have been good by now
i keep staying up for 24 hour periods and then forcing myself to go to work slightly buzzed. i never anticipated any of this.
so after months of secret thoughts, something entirely cinematic happened and i never really figured that was possible. i am 19! i may really want to start yelling that i'm 19! and that i cannot fathom this and i cannot possibly Be This Way, and also i hope i don't get fired.
and at the bar on tuesday, i did not purchase any of my drinks, and there were lots of drinks, and i feel weird about that. i feel weird because what am i supposed to do now?
this isn't something i can't walk away from.
so after months of secret thoughts, something entirely cinematic happened and i never really figured that was possible. i am 19! i may really want to start yelling that i'm 19! and that i cannot fathom this and i cannot possibly Be This Way, and also i hope i don't get fired.
and at the bar on tuesday, i did not purchase any of my drinks, and there were lots of drinks, and i feel weird about that. i feel weird because what am i supposed to do now?
this isn't something i can't walk away from.