It would be so easy to make me happy but I don't have an inkling of how. And I'm so miserable all the time and I just want to QUIT - everything. Just leave me alone and let me waste my life because that's my easy way out. I feel so intensely lonely because despite the multitudes of people around me, no one is actually listening. Some people try but ( Read more... )

Sleeping is really the easiest thing to do.

Don't ask me questions and I won't lie to you, because I try.

And don't ask me to do ANYTHING. I just want to disappear.

Do this for me please! like now please! like DO IT please ( Read more... )

Wow I'm beat! Tonight was pretty cool because my parents decided to have a lunar new year party and invite everyone from both sides of the family. There were about 32 people or more from my dad's side, I think. Actually I have no idea, but that's what my mom said. I have just finished helping my mom clean up the porch and rearrange the house ( Read more... )

Yesterday there was a little swatch of rainbow hanging out in the middle of the sky.

If anyone wants to get me a present for my birthday or, really, anything - you could get me a typewriter. I'd appreciate it very much! A real, old-school typewriter. :D

Life seems to be picking up, at certain moments. I hope it lasts. Pray for me, pleaseI wonder ( Read more... )

I could sit here all day listening to 90.5FM. These old songs are really evocative. And wow could they sing. Voices like thick vodka and words like fingers walking up your spine. And that's my maudlin prosiness for the day! goodnight.

at the moment

I MISS MANDY BUT I DON'T THINK MANDY MISSES ME.

why am I always so needy about, like, EVERYTHING?? OKAY. I'm going to stop talking about people. like get a life already, and stop talking about other people's.

also eating disorders are a lot more pervasive than I thought. hmm.

i'll write like writing and not like talking some time in the (near?)

( photos from a long time ago )

Yay and what an experience! Different reactions from different people but the entire thing was just... wow. Taken as a whole even with Raj's blistering lectures and our mess-ups and quarrels and discouragements. I think we felt a connection somewhere. About something ( Read more... )

WE RULE ( Read more... )