today is tuesday
Yesterday there was a little swatch of rainbow hanging out in the middle of the sky.
If anyone wants to get me a present for my birthday or, really, anything - you could get me a typewriter. I'd appreciate it very much! A real, old-school typewriter. :D
Life seems to be picking up, at certain moments. I hope it lasts. Pray for me, please.
I wonder why I can't just live free. Other people make it look so simple. So sometimes I wonder if I'm just making things difficult for myself, being sad cos I think it's cool. But why would coolness include failing everything at school and hating everyone? I'd like to believe this rage doesn't come from me. Yeah it sounds strange saying I hate everyone, because I don't, really. I just get too angry too easily and express it too strongly.
So lost.
There's this block in my life that prevents me from doing anything productive. I just want a modicum of control. You know. At least let me decide some things. Why does this big bureaucracy get to control my life? And it doesn't even give a flying dump about me.
I don't want the little rebellions. Cos that messes me up in the system. Either I have to fit in completely, or drop out before I go crazy or fail everything. Asserting little pockets of authority doesn't help me at all. I need to really have control.
Anything would do you know. How do I make a living sacrifice of my heart when I don't have it?
the #%^%)%$*()$%. Okay, so, what is love? and that's not rhetoric. come on.
If anyone wants to get me a present for my birthday or, really, anything - you could get me a typewriter. I'd appreciate it very much! A real, old-school typewriter. :D
Life seems to be picking up, at certain moments. I hope it lasts. Pray for me, please.
I wonder why I can't just live free. Other people make it look so simple. So sometimes I wonder if I'm just making things difficult for myself, being sad cos I think it's cool. But why would coolness include failing everything at school and hating everyone? I'd like to believe this rage doesn't come from me. Yeah it sounds strange saying I hate everyone, because I don't, really. I just get too angry too easily and express it too strongly.
So lost.
There's this block in my life that prevents me from doing anything productive. I just want a modicum of control. You know. At least let me decide some things. Why does this big bureaucracy get to control my life? And it doesn't even give a flying dump about me.
I don't want the little rebellions. Cos that messes me up in the system. Either I have to fit in completely, or drop out before I go crazy or fail everything. Asserting little pockets of authority doesn't help me at all. I need to really have control.
Anything would do you know. How do I make a living sacrifice of my heart when I don't have it?
the #%^%)%$*()$%. Okay, so, what is love? and that's not rhetoric. come on.