i went to bed last night, happy as could be, woke up, still very happy, and even arrived to school happy...but progressively my day got worse. At this point of my day, im immensely pissed off. I wish shit would go my way for once...

i can't stand this...living with a sister, who knows which buttons to push, knows what words to say to make me feel like absolute shit...things like "she doesnt love you" thats the one that gets me every time.

+>me<+

ready for today to be over, hopefully tomorrow will bring something better.

+>le garson<+

well, I sure do feel like shit...

reading Lisa's journal, she talks about being scared of relationships...its hard for me to comprehend...since my fear is the complete opposite of hers.I remember when we were dating, and she told me that now that she and I were together, she no longer had that fear...was it a lie? I know only 2 things...I love her more than i love Life itself, and ( Read more... )

It's a little ways away, but I was thinking about it today...february, valentines day. Yeah another time of the year when i get to reflect on my lonliness. this'll be a fun ride.

+>Me<+

this IS my december ( Read more... )

I made the mistake of going back to read entries from when Lisa broke up with me, why i did this, i dont know, but it was a fuckin' reality check...me and Lisa arent dating anymore, it's fucking crushing me, im no more than a broken spirit in a far too complicated world. I miss everything so much, I want to feel her lips against mine once more, i ( Read more... )

my knee hurts worse than it did yesterday,maybe thats because they took a chunk of cartiladge from it! owwies. It hurts to walk, so i've been sitting pretty much all day, im making me some ramen to eat (not the way you americans cook it,the authentic oriental style :P)so...after i eat, i'll probably take a nap, since nothing good is on t.v, then i' ( Read more... )

I hate dreams, I hate them because they always end =(