My trip is over, and now I have to go back. How can i complain when i have had five weeks of vaction, but what i do know now is there are mistakes I will not repeat. I do not think it was real, just very manipulated and I am not wasting my time anymore. "I wonder if everything I do I do instead of something I want to do more. This question ( Read more... )

I am so far away from my life there. I feel good about myself here. Active instead of festering. Looking at this from far away I do not know if it was ever healthy. Intimidated by myself, maybe even settling. I am tired of fighting to make this free, when it should have just happened. the sun rarely filtered down there. Fighting me, and fighting ( Read more... )

How exactly is it that you predict the state of tommorow when it is not real, and you do not know, and I can guarantee it may get way better or way worse. We have seen very little of what this world is and there is no way you can determine it is not for you. Cover the planet then fine you can come back to me screaming at me and tell me that it is ( Read more... )

No matter what tommorow brings, or how overdramatic/tramatic I am, Today at 5:20pm it was not just okay, it was incredible. I do it for the it brings cuz I am a joyful girl cuz the world owes us nothing we owe each other the world. Well That is why i do it when i can convince myself to do it at all

I am really sorry. Dishonesty is not worth it. The protection it provides is unneccesary. I hope you understand all I want with you is clarityh and understanding. sorry.

needing it, grabbing at it, clutching a false belief in you. There is just some time out there I know it...quiet time, and if I was not so afraid of how loud the silence can get i would probably find it. I could relax, what?! Breathe without my other personalities trying to cut off my air supply. Real faith in nobody but myself, wow what an ( Read more... )

so what the fuck are we going to do. Seriously, what are you all doing to change this. I will not lose my faith in you, because once i do that I am letting us all be fucked. I will NOT do that. But, I do not know where to start. The state of the planet is not one in which I want to be. I want to leave this. honestly i cannot even bear to ( Read more... )

eek...aah. love...

there is plenty of love to go around...why be threatened of jealous ever, right beth?! there will always be something to fill what has left...yes i am confident in that, although i often miss what leaves. I often desire for things to remain forever, despite the fact i have no concept of that word. Things are entirely different now then they were ( Read more... )

for real. for something. warmest feeling ever. it's like going wherever home is, accomplished. Breathing finally with a purpose. crazy in a differnt acheivement.