I had the worst dream last night!  I woke up and didn't know what to do!  Kevin and I were out dancing at the Wild Onion (well, I was dancing with some girlfriends, he was at the bar with his friend Steve) and this gal comes up to me, SUPER hot girl, way way hotter than me, and asked if Kevin was mine or if she could have him.  And he had been ( Read more... )

I can’t let go, no I can’t let go of you  :||:  You’re holding me back without even trying to

Why can't you just see how much you mean to me?  I want to be me, live my life, do the things that mean something to me.  And I want you to do the same thing.  I WANT you to be happy.  But I can't--no I just don't want to do them without you.  I just want ( Read more... )

Church today....was.....amazing.  I always hear stories of people physically feeling the Holy Spirit, and God's presence, and all that stuff, but I've never experienced it.  Today, I think I did.  Micah is out in Africa preaching, so Tof led the service today.  He started off with "pain drives people do crazy things."  Then, after telling the story ( Read more... )

Your words to me just a whisper || Your face is so unclear || I try to pay attention || Your words just disappear
'Cause it's always raining in my head || Forget all the things I should have said
So I speak to you in riddles || 'Cause my words get in my way. || I smoke the whole thing to my head || And feel it wash away || 'Cause I can't take ( Read more... )

I've started to come to the realization that the reason my relationships have always failed was because the guy i was with never cared enough to continue it. really, i'm not sure he ever cared at all. this Dr. Cox quote from Scrubs has always been kind of this quote I've lived by: "Relationships don't work the way they do on television and in the ( Read more... )

It's a good thing, tears never show in the pouring rain ( Read more... )

I've been noticing more and more lately. Men, when they leave their wives and get new ones, will 9 times out of 10 care more for their new wives than their daughters; their own flesh and blood. But women will almost always, 9 times out of ten they will love those little girls more than any man. ever. I wouldn't sit there and say it was true just ( Read more... )

i fucking hate boys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so extremely depressed, unmotivated, and just so so so tired lately. it's completely ridiculous. i really honestly don't know whats wrong with me, what got me to this point, but whats worse is i can't seem to pull myself out of it ( Read more... )

I hate myself.

I hope they're happy.

Though I have to admit I probobly deserve it.

I need Vespers so bad right now.