Shige Essay n.26 - Medicine -
Aoi hitorigoto 26 - Medicine -
Myojo - 2008-08
Kato Shigeaki
May has come again, my physical condition has crumbled down. It's around a month that my throat aches and maybe I caught a cold but still I don't do anything about it.
By the way, until now I never caught cold easily. Because somebody once said that only the stupid never catches a cold when I talk about this everybody always make fun of me but me, who usually is not sensitive to pain, recently I understood the essence of those words.
It's not that stupid people don't catch colds, it's that they don't notice it.
Well whatever it is, I'm stupid but in any case I noticed my painful throat aches and headaches so before the Golden Week I went to the hospital. There I've been told the name of my disease: "Hemolytic streptococcal infection". Looking to this long word I felt like I was virulent but it's nothing of serious. It seems it's an illness brought by a bacillus that affects frequently children.
When I told this to my parents they answered me: "But you're old! Why are you infected with that!".
By the way it seems that I can recover in 2-3 days if I take a medicine, but even if there are possibilities that it will cause complications the doctor recommended me to properly take it.
Thinking how bad it was that this occurred just before the Golden Week (well, in the end I had to work all the days so the golden week was screwed) I began to take my medicine and just then the gum of my back teeth began to hurt.
So I went to my dentist to make him see it, somehow my wisdom tooth was growing and there was a germ's invasion from it all gathered there. Of course he gave me a medicine and the pain went away immediately. This happened at the beginning of May. Exactly May's disease, it made me wanna laugh.
I had to take 6 different medicines, 7 pills. 2 of them were antibiotics. I also experienced once the intravenous drip. Until now I always was full of health so looking at me now I wonder how I became so weak. Even if I take medicines, when I feel bad I feel really really bad. The more I feel bad the more I get angry and I end up to be frustrated against people. I say bad things and use irony for example, I say things that I never thought before. This side of me is the worst ever and when I accuse myself for it I get even more angry.
Before I went with my friends to do snowboard and one of them while sliding fractured his hand. Returning home, everybody was very careful to him and we were supporting him kindly but he began to spit violent words to us. That time I felt like stand up to scold him but then I remember how I feel when I'm bad so I understood his mood. It wasn't him to say those words, the blame is on the pain he was feeling. In my case too, I'm sure that the bacillus inside my body is laughing "ihihih" with an evil face making me saying regrettable things.
In other words, I took many medicines but they couldn't kill the bacillus who entered my very heart. This may sound as an excuse but I really feel like I said those things I don't think because of something toxic in my body and heart. For this I had such a sharp tongue.
"Right now I'm taking so many medicines..." when I said this to my friend, he told me: "Medicines, if you read it backwards they are Risks (Kusuri-Risuku)". I thought that this was scary but maybe it's true. If you live without taking medicines you can't go over it. Because medicines are medicines but they also are kind of poison.
There aren't medicines that kills the bacillus inside the hearts. You have to use the other people as the medicine, spitting bad words, doing things you never thought, like this you can kill this obstinate bacillus of the heart.
Those strong medicines to win over this bacillus are essential. Boyfriends, friends, family.
But if you depend too much on them the poison can overcome and there's the possibility that your relationship will break off. For this, remember to write this on your medicine's package:
"Usage: Observe the right dosage, use it carefully"
This guy is a genius ♥
