can you see that i'm not so blind? yeah, i've got my eyes to guide when the road is hard to find. and i cannot deny that i've tried, unsuccessfully at times...had to rationalize. maybe i'll find, a reason for my life. or maybe i'll just live on, whatever feels right. well i could spend my time tryin to see this in the light. but why contemplate all ( Read more... )

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put away all indiscretions, watch the alchemists work. stones that shimmer once were weighty fragments of this earth. but these obsessions aren't us, and we can overcome. enlightened by the truest, possessive one. sins can't hide in shadow forever. exhumation, worthwhile endeavor. let no stone lay unturned, let all you have be learned ( Read more... )

well, you're out late. does it feel great not to care? whiskey don't wash the smell of smoke off your hair. you're deluged. i'm disarmed. and you've got that ultimate weapon. would you believe me if i didn't want it anymore?

it makes me sick, this control that i desire. like i have any say, anyway. i get the message; you're all-important, omnipotent. i feed off table scraps. whenever you're in the mood.

I tell myself I'm not alone to force the anger from me. Situations seem so desperate. See what I've become? I don't want your pity, it's not becoming of you. It only makes me feel I don't deserve this love that I have earned. I'm a sinner casting stones. Hypocritical and weak. Targeting the narcissist that takes control inside of me. Force this ( Read more... )

i am inflicted, but not afflicted. i will unleash myself upon you. suck all your insides dry. my memory will leave you squirming. the binding pinch only reaffirming, that i can destroy what i helped create. your pain is like gasoline for me. your tears keep the fuel pump dregding the tank. my hand, the vice grip on your throat, ready to clench at ( Read more... )

sink deep into skin. bite down to the bone. back and forth, that's right, like the pendulum. yeah, i'll come straight home. sheets hide our darkest secrets. held there in the sweat. we scream repentence yet moan for the thrill. we don't speak of regrets ( Read more... )

i've been trying to get my head on straight, but i can't ignore the noise. the voices, they all scream at me, i guess they won't be ignored. i feel the tensions pushing us, it's a way i don't want to go. i wish i could relax and keep from screaming at the walls. i fight and fight and can't stop making all the messes i create. i'm always fighting ( Read more... )

If only these dreams would stop, then maybe i could get some sleep. I've been trying to get it together, but there's so many obstacles. How to surpass these fears, I don't know. I will beat this. I have far too much to lose. Lately, I've felt us drifting, which only brings the fear back into the picture. But I'll pump these veins and force these ( Read more... )