Angsting in Prison

[space_heart_boy]

[Sitting curled up with his head on his knees, Quatre is beating himself up for what he has done.]

[Private, but totally hackable because of his current mental state.]

How....How could I do something like that?  It was bad enough that I destroyed that one colony, but to attack my friends?  They even tried to reason with me, but I was just too

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[gundam_savior]

Kira sustained heavy injuries, but he will survive.

As for you, the guilt is now yours to bear, Quatre. To take innocent lives make you no better than a terrorist. I understand you have your reasons, but nothing justifies killing civilians, regardless of what is promised to you. As the saying goes, "absolute power corrupts absolutely".

[space_heart_boy]

He's going to be all right? Thank Allah...

You're right, absolute power does corrupt absolutely. And I will spend the rest of my life trying to make up for what I've done, even though I don't deserve the chance to.

...I should have just stuck to rebuilding Sandrock. I wish I had never come across the plans for Wing Zero and the ZERO System.

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[gundam_savior]

...Quatre, with all of my heart, I want to be angry at you. Kira is unconscious. Lockon is... in similar condition, and will probably lose an eye. As a sniper, this is debilitating. These people, they were both my friends, people I would trust my lives with. An enemy of theirs is a swore enemy of mine. But...

Vengeance is not what either of them would want. Up until the very end, Kira trusted you. He threw himself in the line of fire for your sake, and if you think there was any other reason he did it, you're a fool. Yes, he wanted to save the colony, but more importantly, he wanted to save youI don't interact well with others. I don't know if I can accept what you've done, not for a very long time. But I do believe that your guilt is punishment enough for your actions. You are strong combatant, and from what I have been told, a warm and trusting person. Don't allow this to ruin you. If you should return to fighting for the EDF, you must do so with resolution. Look to the past for motivation, not absolution and wallowing in your own

[space_heart_boy]

Setsuna...While I still feel guilty and probably will be for a long time, I won't let it stop me from doing what I think is right. I know that Kira...Kira would be the first to knock some sense into me if I did let this stop me. So if you all will let me, once I find out what is going to happen to me, I would like to continue fighting along side of everyone here.

One more thing. Can I ask what happened to Wing Zero? Did the EDF retrieve it or leave it behind? Because if it was left behind, we may be in trouble.

[messiahfist]

Hey there. I see you've calmed down a bit.

How're you holding up?

[space_heart_boy]

As well as can be expected after coming to your senses and realizing you were fighting your friends. I want to apologize for that.

[messiahfist]

It's okay. We all sorta went a little crazy out there. I was freaking out since I had thought Lockon had died and the Messiah Fist got damaged and it took me a while to sort through everything and get past my frustrations.

The important thing is we all made it back in one piece. Kira and Lockon are still alive and you're back to normal. Ryoma's getting a replacement for Getter Bear and Setsuna's gonna take some time to sort things out for him too.

[space_heart_boy]

It's a relief that everyone is still alive. If I had managed to kill one of you....

*trails off before changing the subject*

By the way, what happened to Heero?

[soylent_genki]

Quatre! Kira will be fine, trust me...if he wasn't, I could never forgive myself either.

As for you, I'm just glad you're alive. Everyone is. But what happened?

[space_heart_boy]

Do you mean what happened after the mission where I self destructed Sandrock, or with what I did in space? Both are sort of complicated stories.

[soylent_genki]

Well, I do have time for both, I think.

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[space_heart_boy]

I'll start with the mission a couple of weeks ago. Sandrock was badly damaged and wouldn't make it in time to the carrier that was there to retrieve us. And the others might not have noticed, but the enemy was firing at the carrier and would have shot them down if I didn't so something. So I decided to self-destruct to destroy the enemies and give the others a chance to escape.

I was planning on going down with Sandrock, but for some reason when I activated the self-destruct sequence the hatch to the cockpit opened. It almost seemed like Sandrock was telling me to survive, so I got out and managed to sneak onto a nearby shuttle that was taking off. From there I made my way to another city and went back to my home colony so I could rebuild Sandrock. I also went back to space because that's where OZ decided to take their war to, and I felt I could do more to stop them if I followed.

[zomg_teh_rei]

*hangs just outside the door, as though trying to decide whether to enter or leave*

[space_heart_boy]

*thinks he hears something, so lifts his head up off his knees*

Hello? Is someone out there?

[zomg_teh_rei]

*walks in and stands, looking at him, not saying anything*

[space_heart_boy]

I should have realized it was you, Rei. It's good to see you again, though I'm sorry it had to be like this.

[gonna_snipeyou]

Haro, Haro

[space_heart_boy]

You're...Lockon's Haro, right? How is he doing?

[gonna_snipeyou]

Lockon OK, Lockon OK

[space_heart_boy]

Thank Allah. Can you tell him something for me when he wakes up? Tell him 'I'm sorry'.