I remember the first time I went to Kelly's house, think we were Juniors, and I saw this little scrawny brown-haired boy running around with a mischievous smile on his face. The days of carefree fun and innocence are long gone but the light of the person will always burn in our hearts. Rest in peace.

remember baby when we had it all ( Read more... )

no matter how much u plan or expect, nothing is like reality ( Read more... )

About 2 wks ago, me and kas broke up. Actually I broke up with him over the phone while I was in NC but it really wasnt official I guess til we physically saw each other and confirmed it. At first it was fine bc it wasnt a trainwreck sort of a breakup bc we really didnt do anything to each other. It was more of a personal agenda for me bc I wanted ( Read more... )

Yesterday was my Birthday. I turned 24. My roommate told me that its actually a completion of that year, so technically i finished being 24 and now is making my journey of 25. Hmmm, well it makes more sense when you think of yourself as already 1 when you're born bc you're not zero age for sure. Who knows. Anyways,on Wednesday I received a care ( Read more... )

I'm depressed, frustrated, tired. sick of school, i've been in school for 4 yrs and i have to go 2 more yrs just to get a Bachelors. i want to drop out. i'm tired. i need some fresh air. i'm sick of everything and everyone. i sound suicidal. i'm angry. i'm scared of poverty, abandon, rejection, failure. i'm unhappy. i want to be closer to my ( Read more... )

Yesterday I talked with my fav design professor, consulting her on my major decision for upper decision. Basically she broke it down as whether I want to be a mad scientist in a lab creating fibers or a designer. That sort of give a nice visual. Well, honestly I dont mind either. I like chemistry. BUT this is after all a design school and I came ( Read more... )

Today i dropped off my applicatoin and paid the processing fee. I chose Textile Development & Marketing, I'm no longer in designs starting next fall.
I cant stand being restless another day with that application burning in my head.
Regrets...??? Have I made the right choice?
I dunno. Get it over with already.

I'm at another low point, point of confusion, or crossroad as you call it. I realize that this occurs almost every 4 year, some big ass crossroad would be in front of me and i feel as if the right decision is wrong and vice versa. I have being indecisive and my brain can just be torn apart from overanalysis. Nothing i fear more than over analysis ( Read more... )

So i've been back at FIT for a Wk now, going on the 2nd. It was a nice 3 day wkend. My bro's fam, my NIECE, surprised me (sorta) yesterday with a visit. So we spent all day going from Chinatown to Central Park to Korean Town. It was a beautiful day, so is today, and I was so happy to see them. At the moment am jobless and running high on the credit ( Read more... )