Only 266 days until I see you again ( Read more... )

You sit straight up in bed, panting. Sweat drips down the small of your back and forehead. Street light filters through the blinds making you a silhouette. My body stiffly rolls over, eyelids strain, surprised but still sleeping.
After you left I dreamt of our house together.
The drama has left.

Starting to realize this may have everything to do with me ( Read more... )

What am I doing? What happened? How did I get here? My hair is bad, my fingernails are dirty, I have cuts on my forearms and thighs, I have nothing to show for it. I wish everything would stop. I wish I could go backwards. I want to push everything away. I can't show affection, love, anger, jealousy, saddness, it just all blends into a goopy off ( Read more... )

um... important announcement... I got tickets. I'm going to the concert and I don't even have anything picked out to wear. I'm about to cry. I'm about to puke.

Also, I think I will miss my livejournal friends feed being populated by pictures of lady gaga....

why are you smiling?
just watching the way you move and stuff.

Nathanial showed me pictures he took of afghanistan on Saturday, before we went to my house for dinner. There was one of a donkey with it's guts spilling onto the road from stepping on a land mine. There was one of a man holding a foot. There are pictures of him walking, near the wheels of large beige vehicles, there's hesitation in his frozen ( Read more... )

I'm sorry if I have been closed minded. I'm sorry if I have offended you in anyway, or made you feel unappreciated or inadequate ( Read more... )

This week... weekend was the weirdest, hardest, most important? week/end of my life. and I have nothing to say about it.
I think I might someday.

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