So it really is 2:30am and I'm not looking to be able to sleep tonight... again.  I've been doing this horrible thing of either not sleeping because I have to do so much work OR worse yet... not being able to sleep.

I think I'm hitting a critical stage in my life... another year to pass... and so many mistakes haunting me.  Last year was probly ( Read more... )

 Another week in hell and I'm learning nothing...

So it seems I'm unable to make it to meetings, I'm unable to get to places on time, I'm unable to drag myself from important things to have fun... I'm unable to have fun... I'm unable to buckle down like a little soldier... I'm unable...

I'm getting really tired of being down on myself and worrying ( Read more... )

"What is a promise but a little piece of shit dressed up in high hopes ( Read more... )

Sorting yourself out takes a lot... mainly time... but also a lot of you.  I'm tired.  Really tired.  I've been everyone and everything I knew it was inevitable to be and a bunch of that I thought I wouldn't be in the last 8 years of my life.  I've been loyal and a cheater, voice of honesty and lies, straight forward and avoidant, always on time ( Read more... )

So I'm feeling foolishly unfoolish in my actions lately.  Translation... I didn't like myself for a moment and somehow I'm feeling like a million bucks right now.

I think people have to really expose the nerve endings to get the answers they are really looking for.  I'd say I did that stupidly lately but I'm not gonna feel sorry about it.  I didn' ( Read more... )

Have you ever let go of that rational part of your mind that tells you it’s not really happening to you and allowed yourself to be totally engrossed in something?  A movie?  A book?  Even songs you feel are hitting too close to home?

For some reason I find myself doing that over the last week.  This book I’m reading is hitting too close to home.  ( Read more... )

It’s not that I don’t care... it’s that you make it so hard for me to want to anymore ( Read more... )

So I look in the mirror... and I want to know who that is staring at me.  I know it's not me.  I had a glow about me the last time I really took a look in the mirror.  But the image is familiar.  So what the fuck ( Read more... )

I see people using this word a lot and putting it with things that aren't even nearly as hectic as even the people involved seem.  If you want to know true insanity... visit me ( Read more... )

Good line isn't it?  I love NoDoubt and can't wait for the new album they're supposed to be working on right now. :)  They always have the best lyrics for the moods I'm in ( Read more... )