It seems as though my life has been revolving around waiting. Waiting on my phone to ring. Waiting for something to do, someone to confirm the feelings you know atleast one of you has ( Read more... )

Switch majors and stay here or switch majors and come home to be with my fiance ( Read more... )

Haha. Let me tell you this:

College is a joke. If you can avoid it, please do.

I have come to a place where I can not only be honest with other people, but I can be honest with myself: I'M FUCKING ANGRY. And you know what? I have every right to be pissed off and upset. No one, including myself, can hold it against me, for anger is the best motivater. Maybe something good will finally come out of these extreme emotions.

My ( Read more... )

I have finally realized that this whole life thing just isn't my thing. I should stop trying, trying only causes hope. And having hope leads being let down and becoming hopeless. And hopelessness is pathetic, and I hate being this pathetic ( Read more... )

Last night was crazzzy.  My sister dropped her phone in the toilet, after she peed, and as she was fluching she grabbed it out. HAHA Yeah, I stayed in monmouth, with all the WOU kids :) good night.

I got a new phone yesterday, its so fucking cool. Okay, not that cool, but its way better than my old phone. Its liike two sided, on one side its ( Read more... )

I don't think I made this announcement...

I got a $10,000 scholarship to CalArts! for being a good dancer lol

and I sent in my papers and deposit 2 days ago...so its official

I'm going to CalArts come fall.

I think it will be the best place for me. I'm finally going to get a chance to start over, to reinvent myself, with no past, no known history, ( Read more... )

I GOT INTO CALARTS!

wee. im excited. i think.

now i have the biggest decision of my life...

should i stay or should i go? lol

here it is ladies and gents, the battle you've all been waiting for...

Syracuse vs. CalArts vs. Home!

Who will win? Only time will tell...someone please give me their opinion, or some advice.

I'm worn out. I'm tired of trying. I want my mom to like me, and she doesn't. I'm afraid I've finally run out of options, there's nothing left for me to do. She will always hate me. I fold.

...to be completely honest in my LJ posts from now on. I'm going to write about everything and stop coding or generalizing. If you don't like reading what I have to write, then don't...if I happen to say your name in my blog and you dont want it there, then say so...here goes ( Read more... )