oh my god working sucks and it's pretty much all I do ( Read more... )

It's weird that for so long, I didn't want to think about my future at all, I didn't want to move forward. But now, with a plan in my head I can see the next couple years unfolding before me, and I wan tto plunge headfirst into it. As good as going to emcc has been for me, I'm ready to go back to umaine. after fall semester I'll transfer back, get ( Read more... )

everything is so fucking crazy lately. i feel like an insane person. ive got the nastiest cold. this morning i woke up hacking my lungs out, it was disgusting. with any luck ill get another lung infection and spend this christmas in the emergency room too! hooray ( Read more... )

in the midst of all my stress, things seem to be unfolding nicely. i look forward to seeing what happens. 

you know that feeling you used to get sometimes in high school? the one where you are paranoid that all your friends are talking shit about you behind their back? yeah. i think that feeling is supposed to remain in high school ( Read more... )

I have been waiting and yearning for summer to come ever since the last one ended and now that it's here, things feel so much different than i had expected. i needed the security of warm weather and familiar faces, but they seem to have eased their way in while my back was turned. and of course now that that's happened i see it wasn't what i needed ( Read more... )

today was such a perfect day. i love days like this. i'm so pleased :)

wide awake at 5 in the morning. so boring. i need to start staying up later. also i feel like livejournal is really the dumbest thing in the world and i am a slave to trends and boredom. however, things have been really good lately. kind of strange at times, but good overall. i feel useful, i have plans; i do what i want and dont bother with stupid ( Read more... )

 last night was the most fun ive had in awhile. i'd missed adventures. its so early and im so wide awake because i had this ridiculous dream but now the snow is so pretty and the sun is rising and everything is perfect.

i am fed up with jordan. he is ignorant and obnoxious, and he's always around. i dream about him doing terrible things ( Read more... )