i can't do this. i know i won't kill myself because of how selfish a gesture it is. but it's appealing. i cry all the time. i want to take a scar for every time. i cut for the first time in like two years a few weeks ago. it felt so. fucking. good. and the blood. the visceral red blood. it was deep. and on my arm. i haven't done on my arm since
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