i decided that i need to take control of my life, and fix a whole lot of things.

and i cry way too much,

fuck i'm seriously like such a screw up lately and every lie i've told is coming out. its wonderful. i hate life sometimes. gahhhh. school sucks but i don't wanna be home with my family. i wish i could go somewhere else for break without my mother, that'd be realllyyy nice. i need some cheering up thats for sure.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING.

i'm scared. i hate having to fill out college applications, finding out whether i'm accepted or not and deciding what i want to do for the rest of my life. i hate how my future depends on the college that i'm going to. i wish i knew what i wanted and was set on where i want to go and have my future planned out like some people do, it'd just be so ( Read more... )

haven't written in a while so here it goes ( Read more... )

so i thought i'd do a picture update from like the last couple days of school or so till now...theres not a wholeeee lot but theres some.


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wow i haven't updated in a while. things are going really good actually and less stressful compared to last week. in a little less than a month its summer!! i can't waitt. hah and oh yes the spring bling is tomorrow lol.

i love him.

so this is probably just gunna be a random jumble of thoughts ( Read more... )

i'm back from up north and i'm soo much better than i was last week. i think i just had like a mental breakdown or something, not sure what you'd call it. but its weird cause like every little thing makes me cry these days whether its a movie or a book or whatever. i'm not sure why. :-/ so i think that i need to find a good boy, one who i can ( Read more... )

so apparently i don't deserve this and i should've hurt myself to get it. i love how my friends lie right to my face and then they eventually tell me about it after. i feel like i cant trust anyone anymore, i just want someone who i can tell them anything and they won't judge me or won't be bitchy about something i said. i've decided that i pretty ( Read more... )

been a while. umm let see monday, wednesday, and thursday had cheer tryouts/the clinic part of it. friday had tryouts i made varsity again yayy! then went to my little sisters basketball game, those are actually pretty fun lol. then lauren and i saw the new harry potter movie, i loveddddd it!!! saturday morning had practice already lol, found out ( Read more... )