Im at a new point in my life, a better point, where there looks as though there is light pouring into and over it . And yet I come back to a place where nothing matters, why I treat things with such carelessness why I dont assign concrete feelings and descriptions to anything or anyone. I am left turned around and constantly unsure of my next steps ( Read more... )

I feel like a tissue
When you need me Im important and sought out
Once used, Im disgusting and thrown away
Easily discarded and disregarded

story of my life

Recognition of the insignificance of anything you have done
the familiar lump crawling up
Constant struggle to keep it down
Back to square one
perhaps someone will appreciate me one day
Sigh

To understand the mind and will of others is to understand nothing, because it will never happen. Times are tough and I feel a little disheveled and quite frankly a little cheated. At times understanding and strength wash over me and pour through my heart and all is ok. Other times are so hard and memories are incredibly surreal. I wish I could ( Read more... )

Im going to be so brutally honest It hurts ( Read more... )

life is stupid

WEll well well...i havent written in a long time.. the whole summer has gone by and im sad I busted my ass working all summer. Of course didnt visit the beach enough and now everyones gone. Faye has moved to Florida and everyone is back at college. I think everyones attention has moved to myspace and journals are slowly fading out. Oh well, there ( Read more... )

You wonder if your the first, third or the in-between, you pray your the last ( Read more... )

bah i think im back on journal mode...b/c i go internally insane after a while if i dont jot some shizzle down electronically...whaaaatt ( Read more... )

Ok so im reeeeeeeeeallly out of it right now..not sure how much sense ill make..but hey when do I ever make sense ( Read more... )