I won’t miss the way my legs chafe, the way shorts ride up until I discreetly tugged them down.

I won’t miss feeling like a wallflower.

I won’t miss watching people move, and act, and sing, and dance and wishing, oh wishing, I felt that free.

I won’t miss sealing my hopes and dreams into an envelope and mailing it to the future. Sometimes I fear that ( Read more... )

looking at things i said, did, and wrote -- some things haven't changed much and other things have a lot!  i've matured quite a bit.  i had no idea that i had such a mouth on me before.  if i wrote like i did, i can't imagine how i spoke!  i was going to go through and edit those things, but i decided to leave it.  it was interesting for me to look ( Read more... )

If I would have known ten years ago just how much poop my daily life would entail, I'm not so sure I would have signed up for this gig!  As I was going from room to room and yard to cage to barn, it hit me (but not literally, THANK GOODNESS)!  Poop happens ( Read more... )

I know, I know.  It's a time of giving thanks and being grateful and
love and blah blah blah.  But today I keep thinking about all that I
wish were different.  I have to constantly stop and argue with myself.

"I wish I were thin and fit and didn't struggle with food." 
  "But you are healthy and strong, and it's perfectly withing your capacity to DO ( Read more... )

it's time to reign in control of my life.  money, food, time, everything ( Read more... )

I swear I have the lightest baby at this age.  I say it doesn't bother me, but I say things about it all the time... so I guess it does.  But he's healthy and bright.  *sigh*  this is my third baby, and still SO hard not to compare.

Baby's name: Blaise
Birth date/age: 6.15.11
Most current length & weight: 26 inches & 12 pounds 9 oz - definition of ( Read more... )

i've been struggling for years now with my weight and body image.  i've tried countless diet and exercise programs and i've failed them all.  not a single one of the programs failed me, but i have failed to stick to anything long enough for it to really work.  i know what i want and i know how to get there, but i haven't been able to cross that ( Read more... )

pretty sure no one reads this anymore....

so far so good with the new schedule.  somehow i've managed to turn somewhat into a morning person.  i actually enjoy the quiet working time!  i like not having to sacrifice much of my day with my kids to be on the air and make some money.  i'm not counting the days that this block is over, and this surprises me!  i'm ready to start working more ( Read more... )

walk - foo fighters (warm up only ( Read more... )