Sometimes i get this feeling in my gut. it worries that nothing that i wish to happen will. that what i want or need to be happy will never be attainable. sometimes the thought or prospect of something so good gives me the opposite feeling. because i prepare myself for disappointment. sometimes i feel as thought i am constantly teased, like ( Read more... )

a glass of guava kumquat juice just spilled all over my legs/carpet. this was not my glass of guava kumquat juice. i'm hungry and now my room smells like guava kumquat high fructose shit. and i'm so very sick of the obliviousness and vanity that i have to put up with in this house FUCK. i think i may need some alone time? or maybe just a really ( Read more... )

WHAT A FANTASTIC NIGHT. friends old and new. dancing. the teenagers. a funny cab drive home. an amazing message. good feelings. happinessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.............!!!!!!!!!!!!

i got an A on my speech.
The teacher said that out of all of his classes at our school, so far, we have been the funniest.
Kayla and i ate a lot of yummy Thai food today, something i haven't done in a long time.
it's raining and cold out. I'm mixed with a strange feeling of serenity and anxiety.
I would like a valentine this year.

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!

i have to write a 4 minute long speech on a challenging situation that i have effectively solved. nothing too personal, nothing too boring ( Read more... )