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Sometimes i get this feeling in my gut. it worries that nothing that i wish to happen will. that what i want or need to be happy will never be attainable. sometimes the thought or prospect of something so good gives me the opposite feeling. because i prepare myself for disappointment. sometimes i feel as thought i am constantly teased, like something i want is dangled in front of my face and then snatched away the moment before i grab it. because it's something i have come to expect. i just wish that once, this would work out for me. just to regain my faith. i think i deserve it.