I am a slob.
I am a fat-ass.
I can't stand to look at myself from the neck down in the mirror.
I try to shower without looking down at my disgusting body.

food today:
cereal for bfast w/ green tea
watermelon and diet coke for lunch
(this is where I start to suck)
french toast with sausage
nutter butters
popcorn

-_-

FUCK brownies. Fuck them all to hell. I was doing alright today...had a cereal bar for bfast, splurged for lunch and got a half of a sub, so i was going to just do a smoothie for dinner but nooo i had to fucking scarf down 2 brownies too. I purged some of it but I don't think I got them all out. GROSS ( Read more... )

never felt so good ( Read more... )

So, I'm down to 126.5 today. Yay! So I've lost about 4 pounds. Now if I can keep exersizing and NOT binge that would be great ( Read more... )

bfast: crackers and red pepper hummus ( Read more... )

I'm such a fucking failure at life sometimes ( Read more... )

...or lack thereof ( Read more... )

I don't understand why it is so difficult for me to lose weight. I guess I could step up the running...but I have such a horrible time running, I'm just not good at it and it's not very enjoyable anymore, probly cause I'm out of shape haha ( Read more... )

So, I'm all alone today. My roomie went to athens after school today. Meh, whatevs ( Read more... )

Great news! I got my very own tredmill! Now I can work out and do my cardio workouts in the comfort of my very own home. It is such a comforting feeling. Now everytime I am sitting on the couch feeling like a slob or feeling fat I can hop up and jump on the tredmill until I feel better :D ( Read more... )