i can't just let things go. well i guess in this situation i just feel that i am right in thinking of it the way i do. am i though? yesterday justin picked me up to come sleep at his house, on the way there i was talking about school, and how i had to go there to tomorrow and fill out papers and shit, and this is just the beginning, but all he had ( Read more... )

january: and we keep on keep on the same. god damn ( Read more... )

snow is so sweet. i'm just glad i don't have to work today. actually to be honest i'm not sure, i might have been on call. but i didn't get a call so ( Read more... )

so of course friday night i passed out at what i thought was like one in the morning, because i was hammered already, but it was nine, i found out when justin came to bed at like four. haha but i made up for it saturday night. and i had the best time,  not just with justin, like everyone who came up was cool, there was no dumb girl drama this time ( Read more... )

 i am so pumped to go to justin's cabin. for real. like not only because it's like we have this huge incredible cabin to ourselves all weekend, but because i'm trying to get fucked up. i havn't partied like hard in forever. and i really hope sam and hannah and krista come. even though i didn't ask hannah or krista, but if you read this, come up!

obviously you were gonna call me because you got the hint that i'm not calling you. and obviously i'm going to sound miserable, because i am miserable. and obviously i WANT to hang out with you tonight, but i'm not going to. and CLEARLY i don't hate you. just because i don't hate you though, doesn't mean that i'm not incredibly let down and ( Read more... )

okay i'm not done yet. here's a list of don'ts if your name is justin ( Read more... )

we broke up again. again. i always said i wouldn't be one of those again couples. don't tell me you are crazy in love with me and sing to me, and tell me my eyes glow in the dark, and tell me i'm the best you've ever had, and hold my hand while i'm sleeping, and then break up with me, and kiss my forhead when you leave.

every girl is the exact same. all of us. every entry on my friends page is the exact same. "i'm really trying not to be crazy right now...he's given me no reason not to trust him...why does he make me feel this way...i think i'm going crazy...i'm a psycho...seriously i'm done...he is blah blah blah and it's the happiest i've ever been but he's also ( Read more... )

i'm so bored that i just decided to use two year old hair dye to make my hair blonde again, oh yeah i dyed it brown and i hate it, but i'm probably going to hate this too because i'm sure it's going to turn out red of course. i'm retarded, especially because justin's sister said i could come to her work and she'd do it for like twenty five dollars ( Read more... )