This is my farewell

I am giving up livejournal and myspace because i dont like them anymore i am sorry for the people i dont see but i will leave this up for two days and if u want my number or anything leave me a message

Lord i really cant deal with losing this right now i hope you realize that
i pray you do
<3

i dont even get it. All id o is fucking bring pain or hurt people or i get hurt IM SICK OF IT i want to leave i just want to not have any feelings and fucking leave its not like he would care it would probably be more of a yes i didnt have to see her cry. AND He does it on a day that i freaking out how nice is that i am not going to school today i ( Read more... )

ok so he told me that he is probably going to break up with me WTF why not just do it now i kinda think it is because he doesnt want it to be rough at yl UGH this is the part i hate I HATE IT i want to go back to hte way i was not the way sean wanted me to be this sucvks im shaking like i used too and its terrible im crying UGH he thinks i beg him ( Read more... )

i like the way i am right now and i dont think i need to change anymore. If he cant deal with that then he was never in love with me in the first place because i am back to the way i am

i need God right now

i hate this i cant trust myself and what i think i NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE who knows whats going on i need to distance myself till then becausei am insane

i keep praying but its really hard. I dont want to break up i mean i want us to be like we used to be....happy with each other. I DONT CARE WHAT HE DOES and he doesnt get that he thinks ill get mad like im his mom or something. I DONT CARE. I love him and i think he loves me and that is enough. He doesnt trust me enough to tell me things and know ( Read more... )

so its back again that feeling of unsettledness with sean i neeed to talk to him and tell him that his side of the bargrain isnt working that he isnt trying to show me that he cares more and that nothing has happened and i didnt my side and i mean it helped a lot.... for what he wanted but i got to have my side too :-\ ugh i hate talking to him ( Read more... )

yesterday was very busy i cant even explain it ( Read more... )

so here goes ( Read more... )