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i am OCD very OCD not in the way most people think of OCD I am the one that obssesses about their life and tries to make everything perfect well guess what no one is perfect you have to be who you are and your not perfect.
I am going to write in my journal and just write so dont take anything personally its me being stupid
I feel like sean doesnt care about me anymore its more like im horny lets hang out and when he isnt we dont but i dont care i mean i am a good person he should feel like to have me and i should feel lucky to have him it shouldnt be one sided
I am scared to tell gwen anything. the last few times i did it somehow got out and i feel bad. I know i should learn from mistakes its just hard because she is considered one of my best friends and its hard to not tell your best friend anything.
I am scared about amy. People are starting to not like her because of spencer and i feel bad. I am having people talk tom e about her in math and its hard. I dunno i dont know if she is making the best of choices. and i am a little hurt that she isnt going to the concert with me and is giving the ticket to the person with the highest price :-\ which i know isnt gwen so i get to go alone
i am scared about my knee appointment today. Its on the really bad knee and i am scared that is going to tell me i need surgery or something becuase thats what always happens.
I am not going to be a wildlife leader because i cant take away the time if they want me to be a junior leader i am all for it but i dont have a day i can take out of my schedule besides monday.
I LOVE DANCE like no other and it makes me as happy as basketball track and VOLLEYBALL did. I am going to start going to the gym and making myself feel happy starting monday morning i am going to go do spin
i have an appointment monday at 4 with barbara. i am excited to see if all of these conclusions i have come to in my life are correct about me and if there is anything i can do about it
*thoughts from last night*
Now they are gone and i dont have to think about them anymore
i am OCD very OCD not in the way most people think of OCD I am the one that obssesses about their life and tries to make everything perfect well guess what no one is perfect you have to be who you are and your not perfect.
I am going to write in my journal and just write so dont take anything personally its me being stupid
I feel like sean doesnt care about me anymore its more like im horny lets hang out and when he isnt we dont but i dont care i mean i am a good person he should feel like to have me and i should feel lucky to have him it shouldnt be one sided
I am scared to tell gwen anything. the last few times i did it somehow got out and i feel bad. I know i should learn from mistakes its just hard because she is considered one of my best friends and its hard to not tell your best friend anything.
I am scared about amy. People are starting to not like her because of spencer and i feel bad. I am having people talk tom e about her in math and its hard. I dunno i dont know if she is making the best of choices. and i am a little hurt that she isnt going to the concert with me and is giving the ticket to the person with the highest price :-\ which i know isnt gwen so i get to go alone
i am scared about my knee appointment today. Its on the really bad knee and i am scared that is going to tell me i need surgery or something becuase thats what always happens.
I am not going to be a wildlife leader because i cant take away the time if they want me to be a junior leader i am all for it but i dont have a day i can take out of my schedule besides monday.
I LOVE DANCE like no other and it makes me as happy as basketball track and VOLLEYBALL did. I am going to start going to the gym and making myself feel happy starting monday morning i am going to go do spin
i have an appointment monday at 4 with barbara. i am excited to see if all of these conclusions i have come to in my life are correct about me and if there is anything i can do about it
*thoughts from last night*
Now they are gone and i dont have to think about them anymore