my life has always been a bunch of ups and downs. god's little way of amussing himself with me. the one who writes this should not be here, he is living on borrowed time. all i know is that sence i got back things have been a hell of alot different. and i think i finally understand. i know things aren't what they seem and motives hide other motives ( Read more... )

SO, i called my wife yesterday, or at least i tried 2. 4 once our house phone is fixed but i don't see the good in it if nobody picks up the fucking thing. Jesus Fucking Christ, i called the damn thing 4 times in a row 2 make sure that nat heard the phone. But that's not what really pissed me off, i could let the home phone thing go, hey, she might ( Read more... )

Hello everyone,and especially to mo crushle,happy annerversary ( Read more... )

well i'm more than half way done, and the days are starting to stretch. i'm having to work hard 2 keep myself busy. the heat is still nothing new, can someone tell me if thinking 95% is cool? well it feels nice here, god i'm going to freeze my ass off when i get home. maybe natalie can heat me up. i'm doing alot of working out and i'm starting 2 ( Read more... )

i'm half way done and it doesn't seem like much has changed. i still do the same routine everyday and it seems to be working to pass the time. i just really miss everyone. i'm going to need some help though. could everyone make sure that my beautiful wife puts all the breakable items in the house somewhere like a closet or the basement. i'm not ( Read more... )

"we go through life thinking that we should or need abetter one, not knowing that life is a fantasy, whether yours or someone else's." will someone please tell me who's fantasy i'm living, so i can shoot the mother fucker, maybe then i can get out of this place ( Read more... )

for my next comment, i'm going to show u much this place sucks by telling u the one of the best things that has happened here.
I HAVE SHEETS. WONDERFUL, SOFT, GREEN SHEEEEEEEETS!!!!!!!!

life here is as good as any of us could possilbly make it.'living the dream'. but i find myself disliking these people more and more every day.the way they are, the way they act, and hold themselves just discusts me. i realize now that there are people in this world who don't care. so i've come to the conclusion that beings such as these should be ( Read more... )

well life here is still pretty hecktic. but i think i'm starting to get a rotine down. it seems the more i work the faster the time seems to go by, which sucks because i'm a lazy bitch. but it seems to work. u guys keep up with ur journals so i can stay informed. love u.

p.s. i miss and love u natalie.
cole

hello,
over in the sand box isn't that bad. At least i won't freeze to death. The average temp. is about 107. I fuond that so long as i keep busy i shouldn't be to homesick. so i'm going to try that.i'm going to need alot of cigs. i have already found new challenges where i'm at now. i miss u all so keep in touch.
love u