coming to grips
my life has always been a bunch of ups and downs. god's little way of amussing himself with me. the one who writes this should not be here, he is living on borrowed time. all i know is that sence i got back things have been a hell of alot different. and i think i finally understand. i know things aren't what they seem and motives hide other motives. all i know really is that if i can't have my true love (SB), then i will never be truely loved and i will spend my days in solitude. i'm changing physically and mentally, emotionally as well. SB always called me an emotional robot. she's right. i found that out when i saw her yesterday. the beauty that seemed to radiate from her that i found myself shaking with adrenaline. just to her say she loved me, it was all i could do to keep from collapsing. that night i couldn't sleep, all i think about was her. this message is for everyone. u have all been good friends, but i think that only my dad, and nate could understand what i'll say next.
to have my sleeping beauty back in my life i would do nothing short of striping away everyone in my life(friends and family)to have her back. if u understand then u r a true friend. if u don't well then FUCK YOU!!!! i've changed and it's time that some people see that. others will find out the hard way just how serious i am. i pitty those ones. i've come to gips with solitude and some of u are going to be very surprised of what i am capable of. so to those who may need a lesson " PLAY TIME ". i will always love my precious SB and i will do all that i can to get her back. i can't take the hole in my stomach any more. if i can't have her back to fill it, then i must let it consume in order for to survive her. "i wonder how small a time that would be".
to end this, i love my wife with all my heart and i will always be there for her if she needs me. if anyone has a problem with that,"we're gonna talk".
to have my sleeping beauty back in my life i would do nothing short of striping away everyone in my life(friends and family)to have her back. if u understand then u r a true friend. if u don't well then FUCK YOU!!!! i've changed and it's time that some people see that. others will find out the hard way just how serious i am. i pitty those ones. i've come to gips with solitude and some of u are going to be very surprised of what i am capable of. so to those who may need a lesson " PLAY TIME ". i will always love my precious SB and i will do all that i can to get her back. i can't take the hole in my stomach any more. if i can't have her back to fill it, then i must let it consume in order for to survive her. "i wonder how small a time that would be".
to end this, i love my wife with all my heart and i will always be there for her if she needs me. if anyone has a problem with that,"we're gonna talk".