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just some random guy's rant
I constantly have to keep asking myself if I care anymore. I do care but I guess a good chunk of me is dulled by apathy. I don't want to kill myself. However my life is just.......well it sucks to put it plainly ( Read more... ) -
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I feel so alone. I'm crying and unable to sleep. It's 3am. -
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Among other things I had a pet who died. Just a bad weekend. As far as sadness goes I no longer express that to other people. I learned the hard way that the most unattractive thing people found in me was constant self-pity. Ha not it matters anymore I no longer have any close friends just casual ones.
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Just ranting mixed with amusement
So the other day mom asked me if I had a girlfriend she didn't know about. I was amused to say the least. I verbally gave her a list of a couple things that are hampering me in that department ( Read more... ) -
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Do you ever feel disliked by people? Maybe not disliked but just....ignored and unappreciated. Everyone needs appreciation now and then. For better or worse it's been mattering less and less to me. Oh I would definitely like appreciation but I guess one eventually kinda gets used to not getting any. -
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Yep. I disappeared for a while. I'm back I guess especially with all the free time I have ( Read more... ) -
Writer's Block: Infamous
Plenty of days and they usually involved people. I never bothered remembering the specific date nor even the year. It's best that way because some things are best left in the past if not outright forgotten.
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I've been pretty invisible on the "internet grid." I haven't been posting much since a lot of my posts seem.....boring and stupid I guess. There's nothing new and interesting going on. The only thing of note is that I bought a t-mobile g1 and that's pretty much it. I yearn for an actual social life and real friends but I balk at all the energy it ( Read more... ) -
daydreaming with no time to spare
If we discover a desire within us that nothing in this world can satisfy, also we should begin to wonder if perhaps we were created for another world.
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a general update
My social anxiety fluctuates. I have a rash that flares up when I'm socially anxious. The weird thing is I didn't notice the rash until after my spikes in social anxiety. I suppose anxiety can manifest itself in all sorts of ways when it comes to the body ( Read more... )